You ask if anyone with such a sick history as yourself can live a normal Christian life. One would have to say, “What is the normal Christian life?”
None of us are normal, even after we are Christians-if we mean by that being perfect.
What is possible, however, is for us to live in the fullness of life in the circle of who we are, constantly pressing on the border lines to try to take further steps. This is not done in our own strength, but looking to the Lord moment by moment as well as day by day.
– Francis Schaeffer, Letters of Francis A. Schaeffer: Spiritual Reality in the Personal Christian Life